I’ve come a long way from those humble beginnings. I’ve built up things better and stronger then they were before, the mortar for my foundation has the proper mixture this time.
I’m pushing myself to be stronger, better, more resilient, I’m looking for logic where none exists.
It’s not easy but it is possible. You are the one on this journey, no one else, so don’t let people tell you what to do or influence you to do something different than what you know to be true for you.
I’ve been able to focus my attention on much more important things, like myself and God and doing the next best thing.
One day a brave man came into my life. He gained my trust. He was gentle and kind, and I was not. I never liked anyone who got too close to me, yet his persistence and patience was intriguing to me.
Life was this constant race, either I was running, or being chased — always on the go. I couldn’t sit still, I couldn’t stop. I needed alcohol to fuel myself; the more I burned, the more I needed.
I suffered from a condition called “Terminal Uniqueness”. I was always focused on the differences between myself and others, now I look for similarities and often find many.
I approached the entrance — something was in there and I had to find out what.
The list of things I’ve lost is long, yet when I’ve lost things I’ve always gained a whole new appreciation for them.
This lesson can be one of the most important ones, if you’re willing to learn. Some of the greatest mistakes lead to the greatest change.