The gate in front of me is wide open and all I have to do is get out of my head and step into the wilderness.
Sure…I want to know everything about everything, people come to me with questions and of course I want to have all the answers, or at least think I do!
I wave around this wand of patience, like some sort of magic stick, hoping all my problems will somehow magically disappear. Patience with others is applied much more easily then with myself.
When your feeling good, like really good – that means the medication is working, it’s not a sign to stop your meds!
I’ve come a long way from those humble beginnings. I’ve built up things better and stronger then they were before, the mortar for my foundation has the proper mixture this time.
I’m back and don’t even know where to begin? First of all…how has a whole year gone by since my last entry? Where does 365…
I’m pushing myself to be stronger, better, more resilient, I’m looking for logic where none exists.
I was dying for a lot of years, yet through immense pain and the gift of desperation, and now dealing with grift and loss, I’m able to start living again, and you can too.
I’d finally stop running and rebelling from the one person that was with me and carried me through all those hard times in my life.
Maybe it comes with age, but I’m in a place of peace and acceptance now. Anxiety and depression plague me from time to time and…